Monday, May 07, 2007

Long post...

Finally I have found time to come online to post. Been in my office for the past 2 weeks without internet has made me realise how I have much I have been relying on internet to get me past the lectures in school. These 2 weeks without internet in office, with little to do, except to act busy in office is almost killing me. Sometimes, I wonder whether I’m really cut out for working or not. My attention span is really damn short. Every half and hour or so, I have to move around, and to make matters worse, the room I’m sharing with another colleague is located at the furthest end of the office. So whenever I have to move around such as going to the toilet, I have to walk pass all my other colleagues room and my supervisor room. Well anyway, internship has been sucky till now. Hope that improves the next few weeks though.

Anyway, for those who do not know still (just let me brag once about it and forget the whole thing), I got fantastically lucky result this semester. GPA 3.9/4. Overall managed a 3.75/4 which effectively gets me to the dean’s list. Why lucky? Because I have put it less effort than what I did last semester and frankly speaking, I went into the exam much less prepared and not much confidence. However, the only thing I was confident about was that there are classmates who knew much lesser than I do. Hence, in that sense I was lucky because my classmates were relatively lazy and put in even lesser effort than I do, resulting in my good grades. I doubt that I will ever get that lucky again.

Side-track: Hmm… This suddenly brings up one point which I didn’t intend to blog about. Remember the time I won like super lots of money in CNY last year? NNB, that was the semester I achieve the lousiest result of all time. This year, the past 2 semesters in fact, I have been losing in gambling.
Verdict?
My gambling luck and grades and inversely co-related. (Please fill in the blanks for me) F_ _ _ I N G KN_ _CC _ man! Haiz… Like my dad told me before, life is a zero sum gain at the end of the day. Bo bian…

Anyway, the main thing I want to talk about today is

CONFIDENCE

This word is easy to say and yet often, we find it difficult to exhibit correctly. Most people will say that there is a thin line between confidence and arrogant. But to me confidence is basically being arrogant in the right way. Arrogance comes about when you explicitly exhibit to other people that you are more superior than them. The form of arrogance here that I am saying is to strongly believe in your own ability psycho yourself that you are the best in the world. Tell yourself that the people around you are inferior to you and really cannot make it (they are pathetic losers) and you are the best for the job ***IF*** you in enough effort (of course, please do not explicitly exhibit to the world that you are the best, as that, I feel is, arrogance). Without confidence, you would not be successful in anything. In fact, you are nothing without confidence.

Some of us have probably lots of experiences with failures and find it difficult to believe in whatever I just said. Probably you may just give it up and tell yourself that I will just do enough to get a decent grade. There is probably my maximum ability and just get on with life. That is basically just lying down and take whatever destiny throws at you. If that is the case, what is there to live for? You are better off being dead. Fighting for the better and fighting is the only thing that truly makes us feel alive. If you were to day in day out doing mundane things, wouldn’t that makes you a zombie? Fight with confidence and believe in yourself that you can do better. With confidence, almost anything is possible. If you do not have confidence to do a huge task, break it up into smaller parts and accomplish them to gain your confidence bit by bit.

Confidence can bring you anywhere you want to go. Just use soccer for example. Why is it, one same team, having the same players, just keep on losing, until a new manager comes in and transform them? The answer is because of confidence. A manager greatest job is to instil that confidence in his players. Tactics change here and there more or less the same one la, and each team got 11 players on the field. Just look at Sunderland, Roy Keane change a few players and stick to same formation. He recalled bench players who had the hunger and instil much needed confidence in them. Sunderland from shit team become a good team. Once again, you can see what confidence can do.

The idea is to tell yourself you can do it and never let anyone or anything (results, destiny or whatever) t put you down.
Like what Will Smith said to his son in the movie, “Pursuit of Happyness”(No, I did not spell this wrongly…), “Never let anyone tell you that you cannot do it. Not even me.”

This sums up everything that I want to say.

Believe in yourself and be confident.

And yes, to me you guys are all losers.
And if you think that in your mind now that you have just spend your last 5 mins of your pathetic time to read a pathetic loser’s post, then you have already taken your first step towards a confident you. =)

Terence

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