Sibei Song!!^^

Sibei song… It’s been a long time since I had been this high after finishing a chemistry experiment. It was only a really short and simple experiment, but it’s the sense of satisfaction, knowing that I know something, knowing that I completed something. Ahead of time some more. For the first time in a while, I didn’t get behind and I don’t need to chase. Today everything 美美siew siew. Completed the experiment, finished the lab report and handed in already. All done in 6 hrs.

I had almost forgotten about this feeling. This is the reason why I really like chemistry, why I like doing experiments so much. But lately I’ve been doing so much stuff that I don’t understand, listening to people talk physics and maths when I’m quite sure that I’m a CHEMISTRY major, and getting too many bad grades that I began to question myself why did I do chemistry in the 1st place. Should I have been a history major instead (last sem my history mod got a B, 2 of my chem. mod got C)? Should I even enter Uni in the 1st place (let’s not talk about honors, currently I can’t even pass with merit)? Was I wrong?

Godamnit, I am not wrong. I live for this moment of rightness. I breathe for this moment of high. Fuck errors and screw uncertainties. I live for THE moment.

Global warming changing weather patterns

You know, if people live to 80 years on average, I’m on average ¼ dead and a few days later, I’ll be officially on the wrong end of early 20s. After living out more than 20 years of existence, I have discovered some facts about life. The 1st fact that comes to my mind is that I can’t run away from maths. No matter what mods I do, how I twist and turn, maths is always lurking around the corner, waiting to pull my grades (down lah, up meh?).

After deluding myself for nearing 3 sem or so, life has decided that enough was enough and show me the inevitability of maths, in the form of my 3 core mods this sem. Yup, last sem’s phy chem wasn’t enough to wake me up, so this sem, 2 core mods slap me with the Schrödinger Equation and wave functions and the other one throws statistics at me, in the face. Wow… and I thought “siew lets work hard this sem and pull the CAPS up abit.” Now I’ll be glad to maintain my standard (which, strictly speaking, is no standard whatsoever)

It’s not like I’m really that horrific at maths, in fact I can do some pretty neat stuff, you know, like pressing a scientific calculator, doing + and -, and I know that 1+1=1. See, I’m not that bad right? But somehow, stats and wave functions just have to turn up in life and drown me… what can I say? I’m a lovable kid. If only someone will make birthday wishes come true…

Then again, if really got this kinda wish, maybe I should wish for a girlfriend… On second thoughts, better not. Ahh, forget it. Maybe I should just go be a history major… or a chap cai pun major (heard that the CCP majors all earn major $$). If only really got people pay 4k per month for a toilet cleaner…

Oh ya, if you are thinking that the title has got nothing whatsoever to do with the contents of the post, congrats, you are right. But no prize. Getting older does strange things to people once in a while.