First Post in the blog

Time really flies. It is already almost 2 months since school started. Homework, projects, ignorance – all these is part of university life. Never felt so lost and worried about studies. But amongst the midst of the lost-ness (is there such a word?), I can’t seem to get my lazy ass going into the right direction. Can’t seem to get much work done. The feeling I have right now reminds me of my attempts when I was first doing A maths in school. Understand all the concepts, but when I try to do that time, fucking hell dunno how to do any knn shit. Practice like fuck and still dunno how to do. I have to literally open up my book and basically copy the examples from it and change the necessary figures. How will I be able to do that in exams!??!?!?!

Damn screw up. Been doing below average for all the modules this term. I thought my disappointment for last term results should have spurred me on further. My aim for the first term was getting at least 3.6 or maybe even 3.7 GPA. I hit no where near that target and was disappointed. But yet, I’m unable to spur myself on!!! WHY!?!?!?!

Maybe it is because the of the fact that maybe I did still considerably above average. I think subconsciously I’m using this as a basis for comparison that’s why maybe I’m not spurred on. I really dunno. I really wish to put in more effort in my studies. Just like I was telling myself to pia during the break, but I’m just feeling frustrated all the time because I understand theory but somehow I cannot do most of the questions. Think I should really buck up man……

Well, amidst all the frustration and all, at least, I met her. She is the most wonderful thing that happened to me, but of course, all couples start of this way. I know some of you maybe skeptical and saying that we are too fast and all that. I think it is just different perception. Whatever it may be, let’s hope all the break ups and all that I have witness would be learning experience for me.

For the rest of you, make full use of ur opportunities. Dun let go of ur dreams and fantasies. Because dreams form the very basis of any achievement. If I didn’t set myself the target of getting to know her, I wouldn’t be in this bliss today! Set realistic aims.

Finally, I’m officially out of the singles club and no way am I going to get myself in again!!!

Terence